You Are All I Need Part 2

We were in the studio today and I heard Tommy playing a really cool lil piece of music on the piano in the other room. I ran in, sat down and joined him, and we wrote a gorgeous song that Barry fucking Manilow would be proud of.

I have the cassette with me now and I have a brilliant idea. I’m going to write this one for Nicole.

NIKKI: Nicole and I had finished after she came
out of rehab clean in the middle of ’86 and we
discovered we’d had nothing in common except
heroin. So no hard feelings, you might figure…
but it wasn’t that simple. I was convinced that
Nicole had cheated on me while I was away
touring Theatre of Pain. I was pretty sure she’d
been fucking Jack Wagner, a pretty-boy actor
from General Hospital. The fact that I must have
cheated on her two hundred times during the
same tour didn’t even enter my mental equation.
Jack Wagner had had a chart hit with a piece of
slop called “You’re All I Need.” And in my twisted
head it felt like the time for some serious revenge.

MARCH 7TH, 1987
Van Nuys, 7:45 p.m.

We’ve finished You’re All I Need, the song Tommy and me were working on yesterday. I guess it’s a take on Taxi Driver in the sense that if you really love somebody, you would kill them so nobody else can have them, right?

The blade of my knife
Faced away from your heart
Those last few nights
It turned and sliced you apart
This love that I tell
Now feels lonely as hell
From this padded prison cell
So many times I said
You'd only be mine
I gave my blood and my tears
And loved you cyanide
When you took my lips
I took your breath
Sometimes love's better off dead
You're all I need, make you only mine
I loved you so I set you free
I had to take your life
You're all I need, you're all I need
You're all I need, And I loved you so
But you didn't love me
Laid out cold, Now we're both alone
But killing you helped me keep you home
I guess it was bad
Cause love can be sad
But we finally made the news
Tied up smiling
I thought you were happy
Never opened your eyes
I thought you were napping
I got so much to learn
About love in this world
But we finally made the news
You're all I need, make you only mine
I loved you So I set you free
I had to take your life
You're all I need, you're all I need
You're all I need and I loved you so
So I put you to sleep

I mean, I don’t think I can ever really love anybody, but murder is not out of the question…considering that this fucking whore was fucking somebody else while I was out on tour. How dare she cheat on me? So today Vince sang the vocals, and I plan on hand-delivering the cassette to Nicole tonight to see if she gets the joke. If it is a joke.
 
2 a.m. 
Just got back from Nicole’s house–it went like a dream. When I got there she looked kinda nervous, but I sat down with her and said, “We had a really nice relationship but we’ve had a hard time, so I’ve written a song for you about our time together.” Nicole looked real emotional and reminded me that the last time we talked I told her I was gonna slit her throat. I’d forgotten that. I told her that I’ve changed.

I put the song on and Nicole looked touched as the
beautiful piano kicked in. Then I sat there hiding my smile
as the lyrics started to flow. When Vince sang, You’re All I Need, I could see her thinking, That’s Jack’s song! Then when the song ended, she just looked at me and said, You’re a fucking asshole, and you’ve always been an asshole. Nice!

I told her she could keep the cassette and as I walked out, I said, How’s Jack doing, anyway? She said I had no idea what I was talking about. I said, Tell Jack to kiss his knees goodbye…

NIKKI: When I got home that night I phoned some local bikers and hired them. Their job was to wait in the bushes outside the TV studio and break Jack Wagner’s kneecaps, then tell him Nikki Sixx sends his love.

WAYNE ISHAM: I shot Mötley’s video for “You’re All I
Need,” but at the time I never made the connection
that Nikki saw the song as partly about him and
Nicole. Nikki was so paranoid but his fears of her
betraying him were totally unfounded. Nicole was a
great girl with a real cool smile but Nikki took her
down to the depths. Every time you saw her, you
could see she was just being sucked into this vortex.
It was too bad because she was a real nice person.
Taking the song to play it to Nicole is such a Nikki
thing to do. He would enjoy doing it as well. He
always had the Devil’s wiseass smile in his eyes. I
guess that’s why he always wore sunglasses.

MARCH 8TH, 1987
Van Nuys, 3:50 p.m.
Nicole just phoned me screaming and crying and telling me that I was a sonofabitch for getting Jack’s legs broken. I told her I had no idea what she was talking about, but it’s fucking cool!

NIKKI: This was a truly bizarre eventuality.
Shortly after Nicole phoned, my contact called
and apologized, saying they hadn’t been able to
get to Jack. I was baffled until it came on the local
news that, by pure coincidence, Wagner had
fallen over during filming that day and broken his
knee on the soundstage! My head was so
messed up, I thought it was divine retribution.

From: The Heroin Diaries